Waiting

It's interesting how things you normally see all the time suddenly seem different or register differently.  The other night Julia and I were reading Oh the Places You'll Go by Dr. Seuss.  The book is typically for kids or high school graduates.  But as I was halfway through, I thought of myself as the character going through my cancer journey.  These are the pages that rang true to me.

 

 

Tomorrow I go see my oncologist.  I got my oncotype score, so we'll be talking about what it means.  I'm not ready to share it yet because I don't know 100% what the course of treatment will be with the answer.  I mean, I'm pretty sure, (like 90% sure) but I'd rather wait until I know for sure what's happening. 

 

Right now I'm living in the first picture.  The one about waiting.  I've always said the waiting is the worst part.  The what if's, the unknown.  I like knowing where my foot is going to land.  Tomorrow though, we'll know.